How I try to apply a daily meditation to my daily life and thoughts.
10 Days of Meditation- Day 2
Today, I was able to maintain a consistency of an 8 count inhale and exhale. I listened to Tibetian bowl music with a backdrop of rain, ocean, and thunder effects. It was very peaceful. I lasted 26 minutes.
Today was different than yesterday. Instead of "Ice to snow to water to space" it was "Ice to water to space". As I thought about the Dread, I looked at it, stepped on it, tested its solidity. You know what I found? It was somewhat fragile. It crunched under my feet. Let's face it, it's a human Dread. A Dread of rejection by others. A Dread of being ignored. A Dread of loneliness.
As I broke through this rotten Dread, I found something underneath, that was beautiful. I felt the space between my eyes warm up and tingle. I felt the Love of the Holy Spirit. No...It wasn't an audible voice. It was a reassuring presence of light, warm light, that told me, "I AM loves you." As I saw that warm light, that reassurance, I felt my forehead loosen in its tightness. That light but firm headache loosened.
"Ice to water. Water to space."
Sure, I can fear the rejection of man. That is natural. That is normal. I even think it is healthy, to a degree.
But what does Scripture say? "The Fear of the Lord is the beginning of Wisdom."
To fear God's rejection is worse. But Christ died for me on the Cross. He gave his Life for mine. Wisdom is fearing that rejection and accepting Christ's free offer of Salvation.
I can try to make myself more likeable. But my friend David, yesterday, told me, "You are weird. Your personality is weird." That is who I am. Man says, "Be better." But Christ says, "I am better."
So I will rest in Christ today. Knowing that I am just the way He made me. And for me, today, that should be enough.